Bright, you'll all be added to my prayer list, too. I'm glad you posted and asked. That's what we're here for - to help in ANY way we can. Hugs to you!! (((((( ))))))

Gerda

Thank you to all who have said prayers for us. A few good things happened this past week, but the stress is still unimaginable - emotionally and financially. I never realized how weak I was. Don't know how anyone survives life without faith.

I have been having a problem with tightness in my chest - probably due to the constant anxiety - but it is hard to relax. Quilting helps - unless the star points just won't come together right!!! Lately I have been doing better with strip quilting. Seems I can still sew and cut straight at least.

I haven't been able to find employment yet, but we are hanging on. Some dear friends have quietly helped us out in small ways without our asking and it touches me deeply. God is good and God is in control. Just wish I knew what He has planned for us so I could prepare for it, but that's not how it works.

Anyway, I am trying to take it one day at a time and each day I wake up I tell myself I am one day closer to the resolution of this nightmare.
Thank you for the prayers and kind words of support.

Bright

Bright, it will work out, and yes, it's so hard not to worry and try to do it all ourselves. Just have faith, and you have that.

Friends are wonderful, aren't they? Definitely a gift from above. And don't worry too much about the job you might find - something will come up, even if it's in a fast food joint - that was my last job (I don't have anything past a Grade 12 education, but I have worked as a librarian for four years, in an office, in retail and A&W. Loved meeting the people, hated the cigarette smoke! Thankfully, every public place in Alberta, including prisons, are now smoke free - wish it had always been like that! Look outside the box. Hey, even cleaning houses/apartment building public areas is better than nothing!

One day at a time, sweet Jesus,
That's all I'm asking from you..... And He will give it! You've already experienced that. Hugs, hon!!

Gerda

Bright,

If it is any consolation, I am living proof that it will work out. I was in a situation very similar to yours last year. If not for the support of some of the ladies here, I would not have survived. They lifted me up and carried me through some very dark days.

Bright you remain in my prayers, stay positive and keep coming here, the ladies help enormously with their support and encouragement.Something will come along, it may not be what you expected, but as the saying goes, God works in mysterious ways His wonder to perform
Jacqui

Well, I have a bit of news - maybe good news, actually.

To elaborate... we were defrauded by a builder after paying him a large sum of money to add 2 rooms on to our house. Evidently, our money went to support his lifestyle and is gone. I have been worried and stressed over the cost of the lawsuit we have had to file. There may be no recovery even if we win. I have worried because our home is all torn up and we have no money to finish it. I have been feeling guilty thinking that we should have never wanted a couple of extra rooms. I have been agonizing over how I would find a job after 15 years as a stay at home Mom. I have been an emotional wreck on top of the financial concerns. Might be a little bit of perimenopausal issues in there too, because I am not my usual stable self.

Earlier this week I found a Bible Study guide in the discount book rack. The topic is "Overcoming Fear". I have been working through it, and it has helped calm me immensely. I am more focussed on letting God lead here, instead of me trying to "fix this mess". So the little $5 book was a blessing indeed, but I am "not quite there yet".

I also have a possible job opportunity. That fact that anyone would even look at my resume is amazing. It is pretty weak. My peers are more accomplished than I. But, I got a call tonight about a possible position and I am to call back tomorrow. It is an entry level job, and the pay is less than I was making 15 years ago, but it is a start.

So, please pray for me.....that if this is a job God is leading me to I don't blow it and get all tongue tied and sound stupid on the phone tomorrow. After years of staying home alone and with small children, I don't think I have a glib tongue anymore. Plus, with my emotions rather raw over everything that has happened lately, I am not sure I can sound enthusiastic about this job. I feel more desperate and than excited about it.

So - please say a prayer for me. Feeling weak and pathetic tonight...

Bright

I know how you feel...as a stay at home child care provider and Mom for 20 something years...I have those same fears. But we have to realize that our knowledge and experience is beneficial out there too. Some times when i tell people that i run my own business, and that it is a Child Care business they laugh and say "oh you have been babysitting for 20 years" I tell them that I have not ever sat on any of the babies!! I laugh it off, but it hurts. I have A business here, and I have all the demands and paper work and inspections of any other small business. It took me years to consider myself a succesful business woman, but that's what I am.I wish you much luck and bravery in your endeavor to secure this job, but remember, you are a vital, intelligent force to be reckoned with!!

My prayers are with you.

Continued prayers going up for you and yours.

Sounds like you have really been going through a rough patch lately ...

a hug and a prayer for you, Bright <3 <3 Pat